An Eternal Creation

Guns were loaded,
But I have forfeited the draw.
To be with you my Lord.
You are creation.
Outstretched are your arms,
Mild and at Peace,
And the World wants Peace.
I will do anything.
Say anything.
To go Back to thee
And I will become part
Of an eternal creation,
Mild and at peace.

Shayla, Work. It is Love. That Is So Important to You Now.

It's second nature to me now.
Fine they find.....Oh please!
Drink a Gallon of Water and
Was it down with me?
Here ,but so.
When So means love.
Music what an afterglow,
With it's Mindless Chatter
We don't play fair.
Told an offensive joke.
Forgot to be as meek as He.
Didn't go to the Gym.
...And all this shows.

Music Taught Me How to Listen to Peace

One of the greatest things about going through life is that I have learned to be silent ,and I mean have peace. I remember as a child thinking that I was always in thought and couldn't just be. I tried, but I was always thinking and distracted. Listening to mostly good music, listening to the Spirit , and prayer has taught me how important peace is and how to be reverent within myself. Even though I have not chosen music as a career ,as one of my voice teachers told me that I had a strong enough voice for long ago, it will always play an active role in my life. You hear stories of prodigies hearing music playing in their heads and they quickly write it down and construct masterpieces. I hear classical music and choirs singing at times. I cannot read or write music so I have not been able to write anything, but it serves its purpose. That God expects great things out of me.

The Best He Had Was Healing

      My Father Knew my Worth. 11 years ago one of my analysts, and ,my Dad's old boss wanted to put me into a "Hospital" as a permanent resident, because of my Bipolar Disorder and other illnesses. That would have destroyed me! My Father Knew this. He had faith in me. He never told me about how the Doctor wanted me in the Hospital until this morning! I've gotten a Priesthood Blessing almost everyday for most of that time. I have been working so hard! God has Done the Best with what he has had to work with. So have I. Believe it. I am so healthy now.  God is With me always.  I always wanted to feel Special and if to be Special took this ,It was worth it.  God never gave me a trial that was too tough.  I learned that Appearances can be fun, but what matters is the Spirit.  What leaves an impression in your heart ,not just what brings a thrill and makes you intimidating or enticing.  

An Offering Of Love

I thought we'd be at home together.
With a little Family safe and sound,
Broken Words come in the way.
Mistaken to be Lovers,
But I think of you now and long
To hear your voice,
To hold you and keep you warm
For that moment.
Each moment as priceless
As Gold , Frankincense, and Myrrh.
As an offering of love,
To not only us,
But to our Lord,
Who created the Earth, Heaven, Moon, and Stars
And this love was a part of it all.
I will never Forget you.

I remember when I was in my acting class my Professor called me boring. I guess I am sometimes. I mean after watching that video of me, I sound uninterested in what was going on, but my mind is working quickly and it is angry at her past rejections and misunderstandings, yet living for God and his word and love. I have a pure heart. I posted a video last week about Genius and found that Genius is borrowed and comes from a Heavenly source. Like this video I made where I say, "apple in a sack and such" I believe it came from the Administering Angels about me that I believe inspire me and as my spirituality grows the Angels about me are able to further enlighten me. They, and me, are making it so it so it will get people's attention. Tonight , at times I felt as light as a feather , that my yoke was taken from me. Sexual abuse is common in Eating Disorders and if I can talk about this in this way, with a pure heart, like a child, the others with sexual abuse and Eating Disorders will relate and seek help. Thank you. Like · · Share

"Because You Saw in Me a Pearl in a Grain of Sand"

White as wool,
Translucent as snow,
Soft as feathers,
Clear as crystal,
Are your words that pry open my shell.
Remove the annoyance of Sand that has become a treasure.
Precious and of worth.
But Who else should I offer it?
 I have not placed it.
I am not wholly its maker.
Without your patience
I would be cast aside.
I offer you my talent-
A Pearl of Great Price,
Because you saw in me a pearl ,in a grain of sand
In something seemingly ordinary like me.