Unavailable

I know what  to do.
Stop talking to you.
Stop making an effort.
Stop wasting my time.
Emotionally unavailable
and always will be.
Protected yourself,
and apparently me.
Because I could not love another
 when I would listen to you,
see you ,forgive you, wishing
that he was you.
So now I see you and ask,
"Was my time wasted?"
I never knew any better,
so that is a clue.